The first time it ever struck me that I could work in films and that its not much of rocket science or Greek was when I was in the sunny Kerala city Trivandrum attending an international film festival when actually I should have been in college. It just so happened that I hear one of Kerala's greatest directors speak to us, the audience, about the intricacies of film making and especially about Hitchcock.
It has been an eventful journey for me so far and though I did end up studying to becoming a film professional I found my calling in documentaries. But well I must say that too didn't come my way and just to make ends meet have worked in different capacities all across, from corporate films to animation. So much of difference that when I did go and try my luck in getting a job at a studio, because in the end one needs to have a stable income sometime in life, they tell me they are not sure if I'd stick around. Don't blame them, my CV shows me all over.
I started writing this blog to put down my views on films, and though I vowed never to negatively criticize a film simply because I understand the pain it takes to make one, I think sometimes its ok to point out the errors or what one thinks are errors in a film. Unless the director is able to prove otherwise that it was a thought out decision to do so.
Right now I find myself scripting my own stories and spinning my own webs. And only time will tell if it will hold water at all. I never thought I could script so much or as much think up stories, given that I am more inclined to think in terms of documentaries, I find myself today being able to concoct stories right left and centre. And I know for a fact that I have never worked in feature films, its going to be a hard long road to getting my stories into films. I wonder today do I go ahead and see if I can make it to a good film or just continue with trying to live life. What with the experience I got and yes I am married and we might look to start a family once our finances are secure. Which I think is going to be a long way from now.
Just wanted to vent out these feelings of helplessness of getting no where in life at the age of 31 and pushing hard everyday to god knows where. I got wonderful scripts and I write stories but what the hell. Where do I begin? Why does it seem impossible from where I stand today??!!
It has been an eventful journey for me so far and though I did end up studying to becoming a film professional I found my calling in documentaries. But well I must say that too didn't come my way and just to make ends meet have worked in different capacities all across, from corporate films to animation. So much of difference that when I did go and try my luck in getting a job at a studio, because in the end one needs to have a stable income sometime in life, they tell me they are not sure if I'd stick around. Don't blame them, my CV shows me all over.
I started writing this blog to put down my views on films, and though I vowed never to negatively criticize a film simply because I understand the pain it takes to make one, I think sometimes its ok to point out the errors or what one thinks are errors in a film. Unless the director is able to prove otherwise that it was a thought out decision to do so.
Right now I find myself scripting my own stories and spinning my own webs. And only time will tell if it will hold water at all. I never thought I could script so much or as much think up stories, given that I am more inclined to think in terms of documentaries, I find myself today being able to concoct stories right left and centre. And I know for a fact that I have never worked in feature films, its going to be a hard long road to getting my stories into films. I wonder today do I go ahead and see if I can make it to a good film or just continue with trying to live life. What with the experience I got and yes I am married and we might look to start a family once our finances are secure. Which I think is going to be a long way from now.
Just wanted to vent out these feelings of helplessness of getting no where in life at the age of 31 and pushing hard everyday to god knows where. I got wonderful scripts and I write stories but what the hell. Where do I begin? Why does it seem impossible from where I stand today??!!
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